Friendship

Today has been "one of those days". You know the kind of day. The kind of day that has some highs and lows. And no matter what the high, the low just sucks the life right out of you and you feel like you can do nothing right. That's the kind of day I had today.

My high was the fact that I submitted a picture to our local CBS affiliate's web site and they used it. Actually, I had submitted 3 of them and they chose my favorite. Even better.

The low is a friendship that is crumbling away. Nothing I do or say is right with this person. I am constantly trying to be supportive and everything I have to offer is misinterpreted or is the wrong thing all together (unbeknownst to me). I will be the first to say, I don't even begin to know what she's going through. But I try to be supportive or give her something else to talk about and it's not right either. So I will back away and hope that our friendship bonds were strong enough to begin with that they will survive. I'm feeling so shitty about all this, that I sat here and had a good cry. Usually that helps, but tonight it doesn't.

This on the heels of a friend going through a painful marital separation who has told all of her friends she needs time alone. I can respect that, but this is the same person who said to me when I was at the lowest of my depression last year that you need to lean on friends during such times.

So in the last 2 weeks I've felt like I lost 2 friends. Today my outlook is Life Sucks.